Saturday, April 21, 2012

Full But Not Satisfied


 A couple weeks ago I was struggling in my weight loss journey with this feeling of being full but not satisfied. Its made me realize how much of a food lover I really was. See, in order to lose all the weight I need to lose, I needed to make a HUGE change in my diet. So I have cut out so many things that I absolutely LOVE to chow down on. Things like bread and pasta, cheese, salt, sugary foods and candy.

*sigh*
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At first I thought I would never be able to do it, I thought I was gonna starve or something dramatic like that. Surprisingly, though, Ive been doing pretty great, I can eat a good healthy meal that is the right portion, which is WAY less than I used to eat, and I feel full. But the problem was, that I wasn't feeling satisfied.  Even though I was full, I still wanted to eat more! I wasn't hungry, I just felt like eating. Wow, such a "fat person" thing to admit.

Of course I didn't GIVE IN... All my hard work, exercise and such would be a waste, just to satisfy my mindless eating problem! I felt good to keep that self control, but at the same time I felt really bummed out too. I feel so silly just admitting this all. I just cant believe how bummed out I was that I wasn't allowing myself to pig out! I actually got really sad, and I felt totally pathetic. Then while I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself, a thought came to me, I wondered if there was anything in the bible about this.

Here are some verses I found interesting:

Matthew 4:4 

"...Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God."

(I actually created a painting of that verse for my dinning room, I see it every day! *palm to face*) 

Matthew 5:6
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied."

Psalm 34:8

"Taste and see that the LORD is good;
   blessed is the one who takes refuge in him"

Psalm 145:15-17

"The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time.
 You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.  The LORD is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does."


Wow, those verses really struck me!
I cant believe how much I had been looking to food to satisfy me.
I always knew that God was the only one who could completely satisfy us, but I didn't realize I was actually replacing Him with food until now. Its not like I was the type of person who ate to make myself feel better when I was sad, or ate to make "pain" go away or anything like that. But obviously I had a problem, I LOVED eating, and sometimes I felt couldn't get enough. Even if I was full I just wanted to eat, I just wanted to feel satisfied. What a mess, its no wonder I got so big.


After finding these verses I sat and prayed. I prayed that I would allow GOD to fill me up.
I prayed that I would stop trying to make food more than what it should be. I prayed that He would help me through out this journey, and that I would remember to look to Him more. I confessed that even though I thought I was leaning on Him, I was really struggling to take the lead. And then I just gave it all up to God. Because I cant do this on my own. I NEED His power, strength, and nourishment.

Then I sat and thought some more... I thought about how much I desire God to use me to bring others closer to Him or to know Him (like through my blog). However, Ive got to remember to also continue to grow closer to Him. That I too need nourishment through prayer, the Word and more time spent with Him. Because I do hunger and thirst {for Him} and I need to remember to allow Him to fill me up so that I can be both full and satisfied.

Now that it has been a couple weeks since then I am feeling so much better about this whole food situation. And I am excited to say that today, 7 weeks and 2 days into this whole weight loss journey I have lost a total of 27 pounds! I still have a long way to go but I'm starting to see progress. I will try to do an outfit post soon to "show off" my progress... In case you were interested to see it yourself. ;)

And as always, thank you all so much for being apart of this journey with me, the encouragement, and prayers mean the world to me. Being able to get all this out in the open is a tremendous help to me also. And I hope that I am also helping and inspiring others too who may be feeling similar.

Much Love & Hugs,

9 comments:

  1. Just keep up the good work. Its an every day battle. I myself am losing weight too so i know how you feel. I am doing zumba twice a week and eating healthy for the most part. The more of the good stuff you eat the less of the bad stuff you will want. I promise. Just keep it up. I just try to keep saying that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels".
    Good luck
    Gabbi

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  2. I can relate to much of what you have said. I have been doing Weight Watchers now for awhile and am down 40 lbs. Your progress has been amazing!

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  3. Such an inspirational post! I too love to eat. I love good food. But what I've come to realize is that "good food" is so much worse for me in the long wrong. And I've found foods that are so much better for me and taste better than that "good food". 27 lbs, YOU GO GIRL! Saving some of those verses for when I have a bad day!

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  4. Awesome post and just what i needed to hear. I have been working on replacing bad foods, with good foods and trying to find replacements for the things I felt I could just not live with out (can you say chocolate??). One thing I have learned that helps me feel less deprived is to remind myself that nothing tastes as good as getting healthy feels. It is a twist of an old affirmation that I learned along time ago during one of my failed attempts at weight watchers. That affirmation was " Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" It always seemed superficial to me and did not really satisfy. Your post remined me that getting healthy and fit is not just about changing my eating habits getting more exercies and losing weight it is about getting really heathly in my relationship with Christ. Your verses will help push us in that direction. I am working so hard to just get myseflt to a stable weight loss plan, not 2 steps forward 1 step back stuff. Hugs to you, your mom and your sisters on your journey.. It is so inspireing to me.

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  5. Just a thought for you....I have been following your posts simply because I had my own weight loss journey last year. I lost 60 pounds and I feel so amazing now! I think you are doing an amazing job and I truly hope you keep it up! Nothing is mOre satisfying than reaching your goal! One tip that really worked for me.....if you are really craving something sweet try eating just one or two of those itty bitty mini candy bars every once in a while. It worked for me! Of course you have to use discipline and only eat one or two and not the whole bag!!!! Haha good luck!!!! I can't wait to see the new pics of your progress!

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  6. 27 pounds is 27 pounds. You rock! And I"m glad that you found words to fill your hunger! I'm always inspired by your faith when I read your posts!

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  7. that is so awesome girl!!!! wahhooooo! seriously proud of you.

    never thought about replacing God with food, but i can see where i do that from time to time, too...thanks for a new outlook on eating- a biblical point of view! very insightful of you!

    love ya! xx

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  8. Wow, 27 pounds in 7 weeks is amazing! I am so proud of you! Keep up the good work girl! I'm right there with ya.

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  9. Maria, I am new here, I found you through Satuary canary blog.I have read this post and Wow I am going to follow you and each time I feel down I will come and reread this post. I love it. Thanks sooooo much for sharing this. It sure is going to help me! Hugs and God bless.

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